Ahmad Ahmad Memoirs (78)

Edited by Mohsen Kazemi

Ahmad Ahmad Memoirs (78)
Edited by Mohsen Kazemi
Soureh Mehr Publishing Company
(Original Text in Persian, 2000)
Translated by Mohammad Karimi

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Remarriage
From the very early days after my freedom, in all the meetings and gathering I had, I was eager to hear something about Fatima; news that may clarify what had happened to her. I was deeply thoughtful about whatever that had passed to us. Some of my relative and friends had identified my confusion and perplexity. They would console me.
My mother in law was the one who would come to visit me more than others but saying not a word about Fatima. I thought that she might have some news about her but she did not like to say anything. I waited till the time that there were less visits. My mother in law was a believing woman and was always suspected by SAVAK. She was still silent. I gradually found out that Fatima had been killed. When I understood it, a heavy sad burden sat on my shoulders. I would worship the God day and night to abate my burden. I was wondering where I could refer to get some news about my missing wife; the one that I would not find any more; the one who was lost in a foggy road in rain. She went and left the twins for me. She left and I hope her to have flown lightly. I hope she could have found the chance to repent and ask for God’s sake. May …
My mother in law might have had a heavier burden since she had lost her unique daughter for her believes. However, Fatima’s heritage, the twins were the ones who may console her.
Later I investigated about her death but alas. It remained secret till now. There was different news. One would say she had been wiped out by MKO for ideological reasons. The other would say that she had committed suicide because reaching to a deadlock. However, it was clear for me that she had found out the dirty misled identity of MKO and lost her life. (1)
Hard sad days were passing one after another and I was sunk in loneliness. My disabled legs had made the life intolerable for me and others particularly my Mum. She was old and powerless and could not handle my affairs. Sometimes I was really desperate.
In such a confusing and desperate condition, once again my friends helped me and suggested me to marry someone. The late Nasser Naraghi introduced two girls to me. The first one declined my proposal. About the second, he said: “Ahmad! You should marry.” I said: “Agha Nasser! I cannot; no money, no job, and disabled legs are on top of the list. He said: “If someone accepts all these conditions and wants to marry you, what would you say then?!” I said: “Nobody would do this! What do I have that she would prefer to marry me for?” He said: “Her honor is marrying a comrade who is injured and disabled for the fight that he believed in. She wants to have a share in this struggle.” I said: “Agha Nasser! I have two kids!” he said: “This lady loves to give her love and affection to these kids and have the honor of mothering them.” I asked: “Who is she?” he said: “Hamid Khanmohammad’s sister!” I got calm. Ahmad Shirini (2) was another son in law of this family. His wife and he also helped me for this marriage.
I know Khanmohammad family before and accepted their suggestion based on what Nasser Naraghi and Haj Ahmad Shirini told me.
When I went to Khanmohammadi’s house for proposal, they did not decline but were not really happy about it. There were worried about this marriage by heart. Of course, it was clear that they were right; I had no job, no money and not even a sound body (!) and not many other things. Here, it was the late Nasser Naraghi’s wife –Maryam Maslehatjou- who played a constructive role. She did her best. She clearly spoke with their daughter and told her: “Ahmad has disabled legs and should walk by the help of sticks. This marriage means marrying a disabled and his wife should do and handle many affairs that he cannot. Miss Khanmohammd would answer: “I am just marrying him since he has been disabled for the struggle he had. I could not be involved in the struggle and by this marriage I am paying my share. I handle his affairs and would be his kid’s mother at least. I am not worried about the daily bread. It is by God’s will not us…”
All the friends, family and relatives worked together and handled our marriage. After the marriage, despite the love my wife showed to take care of Zahra and Maryam, Fartoukzadeh family asked me to keep them with themselves to console and fill the empty place of Fatima. The twins were much more used to live with them. I also felt it was better for this suffered family to keep my twins with them instead of their unique beloved lost daughter. Of course I should say that it was not easy for us and several people intervened to convince us to accept this matter including Haj Yousef Rashidi and Abbass Douzdouzani.

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1- Mr. Ahmad in a complaint that filed in 1980 at Revolutionary Court Prosecutor writes: “… based on the information I received from different sources, after separation from me my wife would go to a new team-house and being killed later. She has had some opposition with MKO in that house. So, they promote her to the leadership cadre. Taqi Shahram, a dirtiest man of that time, would take her to his team-house in order to hoax her by suggesting more promotions. However, she would not get hoaxed by his hollow words and continue her opposition. Taqi Shahram who observed this situation would kill her and pretend that she had committed suicide and there is no evident about her corpse.

 
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